Sunday, March 16, 2008

I just wanna....

My experience working today just serves as another confirmation to me that all I really want to do in this life is write. Write my story, write other people's stories, jot down my observations, write poems and letters and love songs, write a menu- hell I don't care! Anything! I just wanna write. In the very near future, I visualize awakening to the sound of ocean waves crashing against the coastal line. As I lay atop my king size Sealy Posturepedic mattress, I stretch with all my might in an attempt to erase the traces of grogginess that lie within. Throwing my legs over the side of the bed I allow my toes to feel the cold of the the hardwood floor. Stepping out onto the deck of my beach house, I watch as the sun peaks over the horizon. In this very moment, I stand....still...taking it all in...the beauty that God has created- so simple and serene. Sighing deeply I turn and head back into the house heading towards my state of the art kitchen to make myself some mint tea. Grabbing my laptop I head back out onto the deck and plop myself down into my favorite lounge chair. For the next few hours I create what I believe to be my next best seller. Taking a break, I decide to stroll along in the sand with my canine companion beside me....or my male companion...or both. (smile) Yes, this is the life that I envision to be- will be. For this is my purpose....to write. It is the purpose God has intended for my life. It has to be. Cause it damn sure can't be standing on my feet for 7 1/2 hrs, holding open doors for people, greeting them warmly without so much of an icy salutation reciprocated. It can't be..... So why did I start this little rant you ask? (or not-LOL) Recently I took on a second job so that I could save money for my sizeable down payment on my brand new car. Oh yes- this is also what I envision for myself and God intends for me as well. (smile) The gig was easy money I must say.... I haven't stood on my feet for long periods of time since my Strawbrige & Clothier days (for all you East Coast peeps)- and now I know why. And I was bored as hell- but the time standing around at that door allowed me the time to visualize my life in the next few years.....where I am meant to be....which is not here in downtown LA at the LA Mart. But that's another blog....to be continued..... "THERE IS ONLY ONE THING THAT MAKES A DREAM IMPOSSIBLE TO ACHIEVE: THE FEAR OF FAILURE"- The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Saturday, March 15, 2008

THE STATE OF HIP HOP TODAY

So I’m watching 106&Park yesterday and they premiere Lil Wayne’s latest video "Lollipop" and after listening to this song- I wonder aloud WHY? I’m just as passionate about my music as I am about my writing. I do listen to ALL genres including hip hop- but I’m old school....and I will admit that I listen to much less of hip hop these days in comparison to the past. The watered down buffoonery they call music these days is laughable. It’s all a formula- hot track, not so hot track, catchy hook- then make up a dance to it and you’ve got a formula hit! And the end of the day today- if that’s what sells.....that’s what we’re subjected to. For me growing up to the likes of KRS-One & Scott La Rock, Eric B & Rakim and Brand Nubians (you get the drift) got me spoiled. Presently I like chillin out to Common, Talib Kweli & The Roots. And rarely do I listen to the radio unless it’s talk radio or jazz or Wendy Williams (sorry- it’s a guilty pleasure that i lu-lu-lu-LUVVVV)..... Anyhoo- back to Lil Weezy...when he first stepped on the scene- his lyric game was GARBAGE- Hefty Garbage! Over the last year or so- it’s stepped up a few notches. Now I don’t know if he’s got someone ghost writing for him or not.....but it’s improved. But this single had me SMH- like WTF? Obviously the video is him in Vegas- tossing back between shots of him riding in a tricked out stretch limo full of video honeys (including Flavor of Love’s Season 2 winner Deelishus- who you’ll miss if u blink too hard) and him on the strip- pretending to play the guitar (maybe he really does- dunno) and him just babbling, moaning, grunting and more or less not saying SHIT.....like literally.... I didnt hear many lyrics- or full on sentences....verses....rhymes....THIS IS MUSIC? THIS IS WORTHY OF BEING IN THE ROTATION? THIS IS SOME BULLSHIT (straight up) Yeah I know the industry’s a numbers game and about making money for the execs -and all about sellling ringtones and downloads in our day and age of technology......so basically I’m just venting...but do the execs think we are that STOOPID- to buy this shit like yeah that’s hot.... I know they do and I know some of us are that stupid. When did we stop listening to the lyrics? If you listen to the lyrics of 1/2 the shit on the radio- it would make you think twice about singing along. CASES IN POINT- "Jump Off"- Omarion & Bow Wow (tight beat taken from LL Cool J’s "Going back to Cali"- but basically they’re talking about how many chicks they can hit- and if a girl is gonna sleep with them- she’s gotta hit ’em both....how old are these children? Souljah Boy’s song- okay "superman dat hoe"- supposedly means if a girl won’t give u sex- u wait till she’s asleep- the guy skeets on her back and sticks the sheet to the cum spot- so that when she gets up- the sheet will be stuck to her thus making the "superman cape"....did anyone really figure this out? Apparently BET didnt give a shit when they had them close out the BET Awards last year- and Reggie Hudlin and execs are in the audience repeating the dance moves.....WOOOOWW "Coffee Shop" (i 4get the rappers name at this moment- but he’s signed to Diddy’s label-Young Joc maybe?)- that’s about the weed he sells......GEESUS KELLY CLARKSON! really? Yes this is just another glaring reminder to me that I’m getting older and the state of our world has gone to shit in a handbasket making me glad that I’m not a parent yet..... I’m sure our parents were just as outraged when we listened to the leg warmer, flip having, mascara wearing Prince back in the ’80’s....LOL What’s your thought on what u hear on the radio if u still listen? What’s your feedback on the state of hip hop today?

Thursday, March 13, 2008

TODAY

Today I have signed up to this site so that I can get my blog on. Writing is my passion- I've been writing since I was a little girl- writing in my journal....creating stories...writing lyrics to the songs I'd perform with my band...writing my own life story. As much as I'd like to say I keep a written journal- I don't.... technology has made us all so lazy. I'd rather IM or text a friend than pick up the telephone for a real live conversation. It's faster- it's easier.....same with sitting down at night writing in my journal... it's so much faster to just type it. Yeah I know.....it's also more impersonal....And I open myself up by sharing what it is that I write with the world to see..... But I said writing is my passion- and no matter what form it takes- when u share your work....you then become vulnerable- when other people read your words- interpret the words for themselves...but I'm ready. I have no idea what i'm gonna write day to day- but I hope you do read. So welcome to my world....my thoughts, my reflections, my .....isms..... (whatever that is- LOL). Two fingers up (peace)! mz. t